6th September 2012 - Personal update

I have to admid, I wasn't feeling great lately - a bit sluggish, tired, annoyed, nervous.

After having a conversation with my housemate about it,  I started getting back into healthier eating. I was off fruit and vegetables, porridge for breakfast and was stuffing myself with crap such as jellies and chocolate, instead of having some proper food. I also didn't go the gym over the last two weeks. I just didn't feel like it and the weather at the moment is so nice; the only thing you want to do is go out, enjoy the sunshine - maybe have an ice cream or coffee. But I didn't feel like doing anything really. I spent some time in front of my game console, but I am making sure that I don't spend too much time with it.

Somehow I have the feeling that the idea of college is giving me the creeps. I am nervous about it (Will I be able to fit in? Will I be able to master the curriculum? Will I understand what the subjects are about?). This is the very first time I am doing a proper course where I am not just attending class to get a certificate, like I did with the MCAS 2007 course. I just did it to put it onto my CV, as proof that "yes, I know how to work with spread sheets and how to format a paragraph" - people sometimes don't believe you, if you can't proof it in writing (and some of those can't even do it themselves *lol*). Same accounts to my TEFL qualification, despite the fact I am more likely to explain English grammar to an English speaking person, even before I did the modules (well, it's the same the other way, sometimes German grammar is still a mystery to me).

This time, I am actually getting a qualification that will have a huge impact on my work life. It will open up new doors, new possibilities, a career ... and this scares me. I am looking forward to it though: meeting new people, encounter new challenges, see which area of IT is really for me. There is so much, but it's scary and at times I feel overwhelmed. Sometimes I am not even really sure whether I made the right decision. The timing feels right though and I know that I won't stay in my current job forever. I have too much potential for that.

Went to gym today now that I am back on my five-a-day, porridge with honey and almonds for breakfast and at least one proper meal a day. Burned about 400kcal in my session and yes, I hate to admit that my housemate was right, but I feel better about myself. Sport really puts you back together.

Tomorrow I have what I call a "Field Trip". I am joining a group of colleagues to look at archived boxes. The company that does it, is located somewhere where there are green fields - which is why I called it a "Field Trip". It involves grass and grass, as we all know, is usually green and in mass considered a "field". And I can drive there, yeah (which translates into "trip", = "Field Trip")! Love driving! I am so happy I decided to learn how to drive a car. It's weird having a ton or so of steel under your bum but the feeling of free movement is just unbelievable (and the time you save instead of taking the bus when you live a little remote, such as myself). I am so happy I stayed with it - there were days where I was about to give up and sell my car. Also love my car!

Looking forward to tomorrow.